I’ve always embraced being unusual
There’s something about screwing stereotypes that I enjoy a lot
But the harsh reality is that judgement will come when you’re bizarre
At worst, people you love can’t accept who you are
And that has got to be the most painful part

Sometimes, being different sucks


I always wonder how things work or why people act the way they do. After a long time of staring, I start to look at things at different angles and in their perspective. Darn, if you gave me a dollar for all the times I spent doing just that, then I’d probably be a millionaire. Most of the time, others think I judge and/or get creeped out.

But in some cases, I get nothing.

I try my best to figure out certain people, events or things but some of them just are too complex, different, or just plain unpredictable.

Maybe that’s why sometimes, I don’t get myself either.

But then again, I should probably let them be. As much as I hate clichés, the age-old saying, “Everything happens for a reason” is right. Maybe some things happen the way they are supposed to be, like why your Math class always get stuck in siesta hours or why Dan Humphrey is Gossip Girl (seriously, what the hell?) or why Mother died in HIMYM’s finale (that was just heartbreaking) Maybe life is just sometimes plain ridiculous it works. Accepting this may probably be the cure to some people’s nuisances or frustrations.

And I could use a little dose of it myself.

Things currently running through my mind

– Why the hell am I staring at this wall
– Quiapo was really packed today
– I should not have wet my hair
– My SIP = probs not happening
– The little girl next door should really stop singing “Let It Go” she’s been going on for like, half an hour now
– Will I ever experience RSPC/NSPC again
– My writing’s getting rusty
– I miss Mindoro
– I really want cake
– Wow this wall is actually the same color as my favorite shirt
– I hope CJ Harris leaves AI next and Jena wins
– Calvin Harris’ “Summer” is really good
– So is Zedd’s “Find You”
– And so is Amber Riley’s “Colourblind”
– As well as Ed Sheeran’s “Sing”
– And even that annoying “#SELFIE” anthem
– I wanna take swimming class or attend a workshop or just do something worthwhile
– I haven’t submitted my Potions essay yet (I attend Hogwarts online at hogwartsishere.com; it’s really cool)
– Wow I’m gonna be a senior this upcoming school year
– I can’t wait for Maleficient
– My legs are itchy
– Will I do good/redeem myself this upcoming school year
– This summer is so unproductive
– Why the hell am I staring at this wall

I really need to think less.

I kind of love the concept of headlights and how they look at night. Whenever it gets dark and creepy, all you have to do is turn them on and you can be sure that you’ll find your way out of the dark. 

It’s like a metaphor on how we handle ourselves when we get stuck between a rock and a hard place. When your lights are open and your hopes are up, you will always get through  hard times.

And right now, I think my headlights are broken.